tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-137262092024-03-07T09:17:35.808+00:00DeStiNYIt's My LIFE...!!
Live it, Love it!!!!destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.comBlogger929125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-51365927408322458692012-05-15T05:26:00.001+01:002012-05-15T05:26:46.373+01:00Just a thinker<div xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml'>I've always believed that things happen for a reason. People who come into my life for a reason. Knowing clearly that I am not going to be here forever, I tried my best not to let people into my life.. So as not to make my leaving harder as it is going to be. <br/>But as a normal human being, we naturally need connection.. Connection with another.. needless to say, bonds were made stronger for those are already in place.. New ones were made and here to stay.. <br/>Everyday can be a struggle but one can make the best out of it, which one would you choose? <br/>Choose to live the life full of colors, adventures, love and happiness. Not only to your own, but to people around you, strangers even. <br/>A smile, a nod, a word of Thanks or sorry.. It makes a difference. <br/>
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</div><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-63147475772761983142012-01-24T14:54:00.002+00:002012-01-24T16:01:36.075+00:00<span style="color:#cc0000;">Happy Lunar New Year to all!! While welcoming the year of Water Dragon, its also the time to do some reflection of what we have done in the year of 2011. :) And of cos, to come up with this year resolutions. </span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">2011 </span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">Travels: Koh Phi Phi, Phuket, Seoul, Hong Kong, Macau, China (Guilin, Kunming, Lijiang) </span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">Visitors: Ryan & partner, Aoife, Heikki, and most importantly, my beloved Peter. </span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">Needless to say, it had been a busy year for me. Other than juggling time between work, personal life, family and friends, maintaining the long distance relationship has also been a commitment. </span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">Life is always full of up and down. Through every pitfall we went through, the more understanding we have of each other. Though we did not speak of the feelings deep inside of us, somehow we both do know clearly how we really felt for each other. </span><br /><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">2012</span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">Work - I can feel and see that there will be more responsibilites to come.. And i really hope that i can achieve my goals before the year ends, or before i leave the place. I dont know when i'll be able to go back, but i have to start working on it in order to be with him. </span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">This is one thing that i know that i want to do for sure. I dont know why, but my heart is telling me to head that direction, although my brain is telling me not to because of the current europe economy status. </span><br /><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">I've set some goals to achieve this year obviously, but how ready am i? Honestly, i do not know. </span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">All i do know is that im going to put in my very best to what is ahead of me. :) </span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-90197903959563240152011-07-30T17:30:00.002+01:002011-07-30T17:36:49.772+01:00<p><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#333399;">I am feeling weary, exhausted.. not just physically.. but emotionally, psychologically as well.. Dont know why and really dont understand why too.. why are people around me always have high expectations of me.. ever since i can remember.. and yes, i have always push myself to meet their expectations, and i have certainly have not let anyone down so far.. but now.. im tired... really tired... i just wanna be free from all these.. i just wanna be me. i just wanna be free. </span></p><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-86702529862583049922011-05-14T17:00:00.002+01:002011-05-14T17:10:09.742+01:00<span style="font-family:georgia;color:#6666cc;">Time passed by in a flash when life is too busy, too occupied to slow down and smell the roses along the way.. </span><br /><span style="color:#6666cc;">Once again, it always happens when im feeling really drained and yet still staying up in the night, and probably this is my best time to pen down my thoughts.. :) </span><br /><span style="color:#6666cc;">Recently realised that my wall of self protection is up again.. or maybe im just being sensitive to my surroundings. Its not that i don't feel safe but im just being very wary of people (strangers) around me. </span><br /><span style="color:#6666cc;">And why i mentioned that im feeling exhausted is because i had lost my cool on wednesday at work, and i dont like it, at all. Siti mentioned that she thinks that i am slowly becoming someone whom i dont like.. And yes, I have to learn how to keep my cool and level headed. I want to be in full control, and i have to. </span><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-20363193688671886342010-11-13T18:30:00.002+00:002010-11-13T18:44:07.809+00:00<p><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#6633ff;">Like i have mentioned, next week seems to be the 'happening' week.. and to add on some tension and stress to the suspense of 'waiting'.. it seems that P's mum has pieced everything together by herself and know about our relationship.. O M G is the first 3 letters that came across my mind and the next thing i felt.. worries.. i am really not ready yet.. i can understand totally about her worries, while i am thousand miles away, everything about us just doesnt seem to be working right.. but really.. all i want to say to her is, please do not worry.. we will work it out ourselves.. but oh god.. honestly.. i dont really like this kind of feeling when i can feel the suspicions, doubts, judgements, insecurities.. but i also dun want to make the same mistake again by freaking myself out before anything is really going to happen.. So now, I have to tell myself to stay calm, be strong, have faith and believe. im just hoping that and dont want him to face these stress, questions, doubts by himself.. </span></p><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-30374617333049741442010-11-11T15:08:00.002+00:002010-11-11T15:14:46.758+00:00<p><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#993399;">Next week is going to be an exciting week, i think.. and i can feel it already.. :D </span></p><p><span style="color:#993399;">Awaiting for an offer from one of the main hosp in singapore.. awaiting for a reply from another hosp.. and of course, waiting for my tax refund from ireland, which is long overdue!!</span></p><p><span style="color:#993399;">Another good news or one thing i am really looking forward is having one of my girlies whom i know from dublin, is coming over to spore for xmas and new year! I am definitely missing the good company that i have been having from dublin so much!! Its not that i am not having fun with my friends here in singapore, but it is kinda totally different. ;)</span></p><p><span style="color:#993399;">Good things are definitely happening (finally) as the year of 2010 is coming to the end, and of cos the new year awaits. :) </span></p><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-1409699696624750942010-11-07T16:43:00.002+00:002010-11-07T16:57:38.386+00:00<p><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#333399;">Somehow, sometimes, i do have a little regrets of moving back home.. but it is also because that i have moved back to singapore, that has made Peter do all the small little things that have touched me in many ways.. Coming all the way to singapore for 3weeks for holidays.. despite of having a bad back and couldnt sleep on the long haul flight.. spending every single minute together for the 3 weeks he was here.. and he has asked me to go back to dublin.. even now, he is trying to learn mandarin on his ipod on his own.. even though i really want to go back there, but the difficult part is for me to get a job there, and it is not as easy as it used to be.. every day, everytime we chat on skype, it makes me miss him more and wished that i am back in dublin.. i miss everything back there, the city, my friends, the fashion.. lol ;) </span></p><p><span style="color:#333399;">Wish me all the luck, have faith & stay strong!! :) </span></p><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-79152914282505179882010-11-07T08:07:00.002+00:002010-11-07T09:28:11.312+00:00<p><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#006600;">Many things have happened since i came back home this summer. There are so people whom i grew closer to, and there are also a few whom i grew apart with.. Sadly to say, im refering to my family.. Lots of the old memories came back to me, true feelings were finally opened up to, and although i do understand of why he would behave that way to me, and none of us can change the past, we would have to live with it and get on with it. We cant choose our parents, that i know. And we just have to accept it, that i did. We all have to forgive and forget, that i tried and thought i did, but somehow, i dont really think so. But im blessed in a way, that i have my siblings to count on, and through all these years, we have indeed grown closer and we are actually the ones that keep the family together. We are all different but similar in some ways or another, loving & supporting one another in our own ways, that is one of the reasons why i came back home, because i dont want to miss the important part of my little nephew's growing up, and certainly dont want to miss the times that i can spend with my little brother before he settles down with his own family. </span></p><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-1534124992498546222010-10-30T18:09:00.002+01:002010-10-30T18:40:22.983+01:00<p><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#3366ff;">Last night had one of my worst night ever that i will never forget.. but it was also one of the 'best' night i had with my brother after the heart-to-heart talk..</span></p><p><span style="color:#3366ff;">It has been a long while since i had cried so hard over family matters, and last night i really hope it will be my last one. I could not even remember when was the last time when i had cried over family matters. Since i moved back home in june, this was the second time that i had a heated argument with my father. And once again, i felt like a total stranger, outsider in this household. Lots of memories, feelings came gushing back into my brain.. and it struck me last night.. That why did i leave the place in the beginning, how was i being treated so unfairly by my parents for all these years.. how unhappy i had been in the family when i was growing up, how unattached i was.. how much i want to be away from the family.. all these feelings came back to me.. Maybe its like this saying goes, "There are things that you can forgive, but will never forget" And yes, these are the ones.</span></p><p><span style="color:#3366ff;">Maybe its like what my brother said, Dad will only, has only been venting out on me, and not on the rest of the family members.. because i am just as stubborn as he is, and also that i was the reason why he got married in the first place... geez.. really, that was the first time it struck me.. yes, that totally make sense! but hey, seriously, that wasn't my fault at all!! They could have just aborted me, and save me from these unfair treatment. And yes, i know and i have got it over that i cant change or choose my parents, my family, and that was when i had forgiven them and accepted the cruel fact, but after all what i have done, and yet, that was what i was being treated back last night.. honestly, for that split second, i really want to give up, pack up and leave. But i didnt.. and i couldnt.. thinking and knowing that my brother has been the one backing the family up since i was gone, and the hardship that he had gone through.. it broke my heart. I really want to be by his side and support him, because it is my brother and sister whom i really came back for, wanting to spend more quality time with them, making up for the lost time since i was away. It is because of my siblings that i am still with this family, without them, i would not even want to try to keep this family strong and together.</span></p><p><span style="color:#3366ff;">Being different in this family is not easy, and honestly, it has been kinda lonely as well.. but now, since i know that my dear siblings are totally supportive & accepting of whom i am, i know that i dun have to worry about anything, but to just focus on myself and be happy.</span></p><p><span style="color:#3366ff;">Have faith, be strong & confident. </span> </p><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-11430162974721810462010-10-20T01:56:00.003+01:002010-10-20T02:03:33.646+01:00<span style="color:#cc0000;">Happy Birthday to me today! :) </span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">Waking up everyday is a blessing, as I am still alive. </span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">Im glad that I am no longer sad when i see pics of C & his gf. Instead i felt a chill.. </span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">Guess Time really heals all wounds isnt? </span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">Be it that i know C will always be somewhere hidden in my heart, but as long as he is happy, im good. :) </span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">We might have missed each other's boat, but im glad that at least we have found another and we are happy. </span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-89786751905572173322010-09-18T01:20:00.001+01:002010-09-18T01:20:34.255+01:00Trial<div xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml'>Found this app on iTunes That enables me to post on blogger on my iPhone n finds this really cool!! <br/>One more day to Peter's arrival!! <br/>
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(again)</span><br /><span style="color:#339999;">I supposed to be very excited.. but i am very calm now... i remembered that whenever i used to get all excited about something/someone.. it always turned out bad... so as time goes, i have slowly changed that hyperexcitement to the super calmness... even in this relationship.. i am playing super cool too... keepin it low profile... just the total opposite from what i used to be/do... </span><br /><span style="color:#339999;">honestly, im not sure how this is going to work this time.. but i do hope its all for the best, for the both of us.. </span><br /><span style="color:#339999;"></span><br /><span style="color:#339999;">I had the brilliant chance just now, to tell my beloved granny about me dating this sweet lovely irish guy... but i couldnt even say it out... not because im afraid that she would disapprove of it.. its just that i dun want her to be disappointed if things didnt work out in the later part (which of cos i hope not).. maybe its just not the right time yet to tell her... its just not the right time to tell the family yet.. especially my ever-scrutinizing mum.. there's stil abt 1mth left.. i'll just have to wait til the day is comin near... </span><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-84616177318035270422010-08-17T16:34:00.002+01:002010-08-17T16:47:55.916+01:00<span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#009900;">Sometimes i do feel that i must have been born on the wrong side of the world</span><br /><span style="color:#009900;">Sometimes, being different from the typical girls that i've known since growing up, its not easy to to be myself one hundred percent..</span><br /><span style="color:#009900;">Sometimes, i do think that i have this multiple personality disorder, of course not in the destructive way.. :) but in a good way.. </span><br /><span style="color:#009900;">Good in the sense that i have different group of friends whom loved the side ofme when im with them.. it does kinda balance my personalities ;) </span><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-59998983525115525272010-08-13T14:06:00.002+01:002010-08-13T15:29:22.416+01:00<span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#cc6600;">How easy does one person fall in love with another? </span><br /><span style="color:#cc6600;">What about falling out of love?</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#cc6600;">Given the exposure of all the temptations that are out there.. how long can one person restrain hiimself from falling into the trap? </span><br /><span style="color:#cc6600;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc6600;">Just like what i told one of my BFF, A, I know i can trust him, that's why i can do the long distance with him. </span><br /><span style="color:#cc6600;">In the past r/s, it has all been the other one that i was with, who betrayed me, and so i did the same thing too. </span><br /><span style="color:#cc6600;">Someone said, " When two people are together, it can either bring the best of each other or the worst"</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#cc6600;">Im not saying that all the past relationship has brought out the devilish me, its more of the circumstances that brought it out. </span><br /><br /><span style="color:#cc6600;">I have almost forgot about the idealistic part of me on relationship, especially after being through with the not-so-good ones.. ..</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#cc6600;">but this time, and the one before this, is slowly reminding myself of what i used to believe. . . </span><br /><br /><span style="color:#cc6600;">When two people are truly in love with each other, they will have to brave through all the dangers, storms, earthquakes together, by believing in each other and themselves. </span><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-85214151535237546902010-08-09T18:08:00.002+01:002010-08-09T18:26:10.120+01:00<span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#ff6600;">As much as i dont really wanna admit to it, but i cant deny it too, about last night, and what i feel and think.. i did had a great night out with an old friend of mine, had my 1st beer after so long, dressing up n feeling great, it does brings back lots of good memories n feelings of being single n available, being in the field of the game of love.. The Good, Old, Wild Days..</span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;">Of course, i am already not like what i used to be, although we all knew there's always this wild side of me, in me somewhere. Everyone grows up, and so did i. </span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;">Being with someone now, who is an idealist, romantic in heart & so simple, someone whom i was like, before the wild, rebellious side of me was released, and got into the world of all temptations.. has made me more grounded than before, and careful of not falling into any of the traps of these temptations.. This is going to be a real test of perseverance, patience, trust, understanding, all in the name of true love.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;">I just hope that this time, there is no single dishonesty or lies in between us, from the beginning till the end. </span><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-34525286070615884152010-08-07T17:28:00.002+01:002010-08-07T17:58:18.688+01:00<span style="color:#cc0000;">I think and I feel that i might have already get onto another track, that i have not really fully realised it till now. . .</span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">but of course, after now, that i had woke up from my own dream, </span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">i am actually glad that im on this track. </span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">I love every minute that we had spent together, </span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">even til this moment when we are both in different countries, different continent, different time, </span><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">the way he makes me laugh, our small conversations, even to the tiniest details of the times that we had. . . it is heartwarming.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;">It is good to know and feel that he really loves me, and maybe i am really that important to him. just 6more weeks to go.. and i am excited to have him over here, even just for 3weeks. . . </span><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-83768064669566631252010-08-07T14:21:00.002+01:002010-08-07T14:26:27.651+01:00<span style="color:#006600;">Family time is slowly becoming important as i grow up, especially after being living away from home.. </span><br /><span style="color:#006600;">Just by being home, just having a simple dinner on a saturday evening.. all these simple things made me happy now. </span><br /><span style="color:#006600;">I have always been a very easily content, easy to please person.</span><br /><span style="color:#006600;">I am glad to have my family and my friends here. ;) </span><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-85170664179446991942010-08-06T18:23:00.002+01:002010-08-06T18:35:20.029+01:00<span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#333399;">I wonder why some would think that i am not that strong. . . </span><br /><span style="color:#333399;">although i do understand that they just want to protect me from the hurt that i would have. . . </span><br /><span style="color:#333399;">but honestly, what is really good for me.. is to just tell me the truth. . . </span><br /><span style="color:#333399;">let it hurt me now, then to be late. . . </span><br /><span style="color:#333399;">and so that i can get over with it sooner, than later. . . </span><br /><span style="color:#333399;">all i want is to hear it from you personally, so that i wont spend the time hoping, wishing. . . </span><br /><span style="color:#333399;">and to actualy spend time to heal my wound, as it has always been. . . </span><br /><span style="color:#333399;"></span><br /><span style="color:#333399;">Somehow, thanks for at least telling me (now) still. . .</span><br /><span style="color:#333399;">although everytime i think of Japan, you comes into my mind. . . </span><br /><span style="color:#333399;">you will always be there somewhere in there. . . </span><br /><span style="color:#333399;">even till the day when it doesnt hurt anymore. ;) </span><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-71208533673312331942010-08-06T08:23:00.002+01:002010-08-06T08:31:35.663+01:00<span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#000099;">There's always this saying, 'The best is always the one that you can't have'</span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">Guess there is some truth in it :) </span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">Sometimes, no matter how deep you try to bury the feelings down in the heart, </span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">no matter how hard you have tried to let it all go, </span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">somehow, it still hurts.. </span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">Let time heal the wounds, and it will not hurt anymore. </span><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-60643085880113386842010-07-23T18:31:00.002+01:002010-07-23T18:39:43.090+01:00<span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#330099;">Finally the chapter is closed, but i wasnt expecting it to hurt so much, all over again...</span><br /><span style="color:#330099;"></span><br /><span style="color:#330099;">It is never easy to mend a broken heart, </span><br /><span style="color:#330099;">Never easy to let go of someone whom u really loved,</span><br /><span style="color:#330099;">But when its time to let go.. or when the one whom you loved has already let you go, </span><br /><span style="color:#330099;">U know the time is here. </span><br /><span style="color:#330099;"></span><br /><span style="color:#330099;">Things always happen for a reason, and i still believed that..</span><br /><span style="color:#330099;"></span><br /><span style="color:#330099;">Somehow, the time has come. </span><br /><span style="color:#330099;"></span><br /><span style="color:#330099;">Time to close the door completely, and open the other. </span><br /><span style="color:#330099;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-68897203358158488112010-07-21T08:43:00.002+01:002010-07-21T09:08:28.175+01:00<span style="color:#ff0000;">I once used to imagine how my ideal man should be, like, he must be taller than me, older than me, not more than 4years, someone who has his own ambition, inspiration, sporty, humourous, smart etc etc.. </span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">and i did went out with these so call ideal guys and loved them.. but i ended up being hurt each and everytime.. the biggest fall i had was the 5yrs relationship with whom i almost wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. someone whom i have changed myself so much that i dont know myself anymore. someone whom had betrayed my trust behind my back, maybe many times that i dont really know as i had not ever faced it. All these betrayal, hurt that i have experienced through my growing up days.. had made me stronger, and more sure of what kind of person i want to be with, and somehow in a way that i dont get into a relationship that easily too.. </span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Trust has to be earned, from me, in this case. In friends, yes, that can be easy. But to be with me, its not so easy anymore. </span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">When im away from home, i really found this someone whom i really want to spend my life with. Age was not a problem when we started. But as time went by, and things are slowly getting a little serious, i got cold feet.. i was watching the movie, Rebound, and it reminded me of what i was scared of.. i remembered telling him that he should be doing things that what usually people around his age should be doing, travelling round the world etc.. and not settling down with me etc.. it was almost the same with what the movie was showing... Hah! It was kinda weird.. </span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Im glad the movie ended good. although im not too sure about my future, but im glad we still managed to keep the friendship. </span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">And now, being in this new relationship, with someone who is younger, by 3years, instead of 8years.. everything is going on pretty well. Though it is now a long distance relationship, which is going to be so much tougher.. gues, other than hardwork, trust, and patience, Love & Fate & Destiny will reveal my Mr Right when the time is right. :) </span><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-13803239976473148052010-07-08T16:24:00.002+01:002010-07-08T16:52:37.450+01:00<span style="color:#6600cc;">How many people dislike tests, examinations when they were in school? Guess i belong to the minority who actually do think that having all the tests and examinations are a good way of testing myself on what i have learned for the year. </span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">How many people realise that actually LIFE is full of tests? Honestly, this thought just came to me tonight. That life has always been a journey of tests, examinations for everyone of us. The tests does not end when we graduated from school. I remembered that someone used to said that he/she was really happy to finish education, so that there will be no more tests/examinations... ... Think of it, how many people you know, or even yourself, did said something like that too before.. .. </span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Life, to me, has always been a challenge, an adventure, a journey, that we make our own decisions, choose the path that we want to go, and embrace whatever that is coming. Even though the road might be tough at times, or maybe a lot more for some others.. Patience, Perseverence and Luck will eventually bring you to the place that you want to be. </span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Upon reflection of myself, i know that i used to take Life seriously. Sometimes, maybe too serious that I have set very high standards on myself, and eventually, to the people around me too.. Of course, there is always two sides of the coin that one has to look at. I'm glad that i have grown and learned so many things from all the people around me. I'm thankful to all the close friends who have been with me for these years, for their patience, love and understanding to me. I'm always thankful to my family too, and of course not forgetting those whom i had worked with, who have been such an inspiration, the encouragement and support that they have been to me. </span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">As for now, being back home in singapore after almost 4years, has been a wise decision. And surprisingly, for the last 10years of being in the working force, i have finally stop, slowing down my pace. I am doing exactly the opposite of what i had been doing since i can ever remember. </span><br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Sometimes, in life, One do have to slow down and smell the roses along the way. Things that One thought that he already know, might not be the same now when he actually stop and look at it again. </span><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-79751453304502171872010-06-01T18:15:00.002+01:002010-06-01T18:28:12.123+01:00<span style="color:#3333ff;">1st June - the day when i am officially back in Singapore, after spending almost 4yrs in dublin. </span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">I had thought about this for almost a year, and when i had made my final decision, i believed i had made the right decision. </span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">It was not hard to hand in my resignation letter. I remembered that i felt a total relief when i left the ward after tendering the letter. I knew that i did the right thing. </span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">I knew that the difficult part is actually to leave my friends, but the most difficult part is to leave Peter as well.. </span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">I should be happy when i touched down in Singapore, but i was actually balling my eyes out again, even after crying for the last 2days in dublin.. I miss him so much already, miss my life in dublin.. </span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">I dont know what will happen in the future, but i am looking forward for the challenges that will coming up to me. </span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">Im grateful and thankful for my supportive family and friends. I am home now because of you. </span><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-65344092441945040572010-04-17T00:45:00.003+01:002010-04-17T00:54:33.162+01:00<span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#3333ff;">It doesnt take me long to know if i can get along with a person, </span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">and it also doesnt take much for me to dislike a person either.</span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">I had one of the greatest time today spending with some fellow singaporeans friends. </span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">I think this is one of my greatest forte, being with people, other than dogs ;) </span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">Im going to miss all the friends that i had made in dublin here..... </span><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13726209.post-18722007243059477892010-04-14T21:39:00.002+01:002010-04-14T21:52:01.823+01:00<span style="color:#993300;">My heart actualy skipped a beat, felt a little sore, and eyes were about to get teary, when i saw my sister put up pictures of my parents & my siblings.. </span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">At that moment, i wished how much i was there with them.. </span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">I cant help myself but to look through the pictures over and over again</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">and to realised how much my parents have aged, </span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">and of cos my dear sister and brother too, have both grown up.. so much</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">Why do i have a kind of feeling that i am the only one who seems to have stopped growing.. </span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">Or Maybe i should put it this way, </span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">that i have grown up too, but not together with my family, </span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">especially for the last 4years for being away from home.</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">This time, it has really striked me that i really do miss home, and i want to be with my family. </span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">Although it is not going to be easy to leave this place that i have grown to love, having my own life here, but somehow deep inside, i know that i have made the right decision. </span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">And definitely, i still have a reason to come back here again anyway. </span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">somehow or another, i believe it is so. </span><br /><span style="color:#993300;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer">The consciousness of loving & being loved brings a warmth & richness to life that nothing else can bring.</div>destinyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07224897457260431458noreply@blogger.com0