2more days to the end of 2006, and now im reflecting on wat i hav done & achieved in this whole yr.. honestly, im pretty proud of myself tat i have achieved the things that i want and yea, it reali felt great!!

List of wat i had done:
- 1st time to a Kelong and had a fabulous time
- done a 5km run and shearsbridge run
- mission relief trip to indonesia
- 1st salsa festival in m'sia
- getting my open water dive cert
- getting a level 1 rock climbing cert
- 1st time taking a long hr flight (more than 14hrs)
- 1st time being away frm home so far away
- doing my own laundry
- cooking a proper meal
- cooking rice (without a rice cooker)
- 1st time going to belfast (all on my own)
- doing groceries shopping
- gettin my full registration and visa, work permit all done
- 1st time having my bday overseas
- 1st xmas away frm home
- 1st new yr away frm spore
- salsa-ing in belfast and dublin! ;)

that's pretty a lot ya..? ;D
nex coming up wil b my 1st chinese new yr away frm home.. it might sound sad, but im not, reali. cos i have plans for CNY. wil let u folks know once its confirm. ;p

ThanksSsS to everyone who have been part in my life, all the memories that u folks had given me and i do still keep all of you in spore dear to my heart, tats for sure!

and wanna say thanks for the new friends that i have made here as well, in dublin. thanks for being part of my life here & involving me in yrs! ;>

2 more presents tat i got, bear's from Glyn, and bodyshop frm my preceptor. ;) oh, actualy there's one more, 1 pair of socks frm honey faye.. ;p

its a great xmas afterall! was chattin wif my mum online thru msn for 3hours on xmas day, chattin wif a lot of frens as well, and was on the phone wif ruth yest, there was so much things tat we were updating each other!

gosh, i reali missed all my friends and family in spore! esp this xmas season.. missing the parties , the food, and fabulous company! of cos the presents too, kkekekekeekekek!

although i miss spore a lot, but im stil havin a great time over here! Esp since after i hav been checkin out the salsa scene here, kekkekeke.. im starting to go out til late @ night..! hahahha.
i will keep a lookout for myself, dun worry my dear frens. luckily back in spore, i hav trained myself to b kinda lone ranger, or else i wont b able to go to the club on my own here, and if i hav to wait for the philipinos or pple here to go wif me, i dun tink i would ever able to check out the salsa here @ all! ;D

im loving this!!

Merry Xmas to everyone!!!!
Although this yr is my 1st time being away frm home esp during this season.. but i stil do receive xmas presents! ;D

Wanna say thanks to DongHong who had sent the knitted 'scarf' to me, the cards that Peichi, darren & mary chap sent. the chocolates tat i hav frm lyn, joanne & frm my CNM, and the perfume frm the xmas jingle. ;)

thanks to all my friends who had sent their regards, emails and sms to me too on xmas. ;) reali touched! that i am not forgotten. ;p
heehheheh..

workin on xmas day, hopefuly it'll b a peaceful day though. ;)

gosh, i felt so tired today after work.. suppoingly to be having a peaceful day, but juz one collapse of pt reali kept us up to our toes for few hours! and it is my 1st time showing to them my serious temperament, esp during such resuscitation!

it was in such a mess when i went over to help and reali couldnt stand the unorganised N.staffs, i 'told off' the specific staff, and finally everything got in control. Sigh.. it was kinda disappointing to see how bad she had managed the situation, anyway, it doesnt matter anymore, as long as pt did received the best resuscitation care. luckily we have the right senior ard too.
anyway, this is a good way and experience to know who is reali a good worker and who is not.

another lesson learned today:
no matter wat present u received frm the xmas jingle, no matter how crap you tink it is, dun ever throw it away frm the plce you hav taken it, cos the sender might see it in the bin, and the situation would get reali embarrassing.

PS - of cos it doesnt happen to me, cos i would never ever do tat. i always keep all the presents that i received. it was someone from the workplce here who had done it and my god, it was reali veri sucky..

so folks, rem, if you reali dun like wat u had received, dispose it after xmas. Or u can give it to someone else who u tink wil appreciate the present, or to someone whom you reali dun like. ;p

Was brought to the Carboot sale market by Heng Ghiap, Keith on the Sun morning
Ther were a lot of things and quite a crowd too, selling 2nd hand stuffs.. but i didnt get any frm the market, was reali quite an eye opening for me though. ;)



Folks, these are the food that i cant find in Dublin!! Egg tarts!! they are realli good!!
and 'Bo Luo Bao'. yum yum!! !! !! ;D

TRIP TO BELFAST!!




In the Train to Belfast!! Look how spacious the seats are.. im seating @ the 4seated plce, and ther is 2seated ones.. obviously the 4seated ones are better!!! ;)

This is @ the City Hall Of Belfast! and ther was a Christmas market, wher i bought 2 new bags.. ;p





MERRY XMAS!!!! Its a Good year, Great wkend @ belfast as i had my registration b4 i leave for belfast, and went to the salsa clubs ther!! Fabulous time dancing, & i reali missed Salsa a lot folks!!

Beautiful view, from the carboot market.. ;) 

Heng Ghiap & Sheau yee's Little Darling, CHEW KaiXuan! 

ok folks, i wil be leaving to Belfast soon, on the irishrail, and frankly, im having butterflies in my stomach, i dun know why.. its so weird taht im reali feelin so excited about this trip, prob bcos its part of UK and i am about to explore the salsa scene over ther..

bought a new travel bag, which i thought it mgiht b a little big, but wel, its a bit small actualy.. or is it that i brought too many things.. ;p i juz dun wanna be not bringin enough.. ;D

this is almost the same feelin when my 1st trip wif the group to the msia salsa festival.. excited & reali lookin forward to the trip!

Oh.. im gettin to miss all my friends back in singapore a little bit too much now... and its not gettin any better esp with DARREN counting down to the days he will be going back to spore for xmas and new yr!!! Darn!!!

http://www.galwaysalsacongress.com/photos.htm

check out the galway salsa congress pics!

i dun reali know if i shld be happy or not, cos i will be workin on xmas day itself, which i have fully expected it, and although i had mentally prepared myself abt it, but stil when i see my schedule for the wk, i stil have mixed feelings.. wel, the way that i see it in my positive way is that i will be paid double for workin on xmas. =)
And i will be workin on the eve of new year, 31 Dec. ;) not too bad to be working on 31st as i will b paid as well, cos its a sunday. ;p
kekkekek.. so folks, dun ask me anymore abt wat's my plan for the xmas and new yr okie?
but of cos, the days b4 xmas and new yr, are all my day offs! so no wory, i wont b working my life out here!

Folks, found this dance clip in one of the forums.. ;)
im going to belfast this wkend, and im reali excited! going to take the train on my own! ;D no wory, i'll be meetin up with darren's fren, keith & his wifey and their baby gal! im not goin to be realli alone, hehe!!

i reali dun like it when G keeps tinking tat she is the MRS KNOW_IT_ALL... oops sorry, its MS. she's not even married, but is a single-mum.
Dun ever get me wrong. im have nothing against with the idea of being a single mum. the thing that i dun like is when people being SMUG & PROUD, tinking they know everything but in fact they reali hav no clue abt it! this is not the 1st time that i snapped @ her, i didnt wan to but i juz cant help it.
anyway, i can go on writing a thesis abt G, but im not goin to, juz not goin to let her spoil my mood right now. I dun wanna to b Ms Grumpy/ Bitchy.

I remembered the plans that we had when we 1st came over, like going for trips in europe, US, gettin the visas to go here, ther.. then when i learned to know that i dun need a Visa to travel to UK, she was kinda 'jealous', i can hear it from her voice when i told her tat. juz when i told her that im planning to go belfast, which is northern ireland & its under UK. & now, i oso found out that i dun need a visa to visit US, she was reali even more sore abt it. she asked "why u dun need a visa to US?" Same answer frm me to her, " Cos im a singaporean...." i know she hated it.

I have never been so proud of being a Singaporean, not juz bcos that i dun a visa to travel to these plces, but ever since im here, when people ask me abt spore, all i talk of are all the good things in spore, how convenient the transport is, how beautiful & clean the plce is, the whole variety of food and cultures in spore.. the nightspots, the shopping centers.. everything!
the ugly side of typical singaporeans that i reali dislike are all forgotten and forgiven. all the K's of singaporeans.. kiasu, kiasi.. u folks know the rest.. ;p

so to my folks back home, dun worry that i wont be coming back, cos i know i will be. unless i hav found another plce better than home, but hey, nowher is better than home!! ;D

I REALLY MISS ALL OF YOU BACK HOME!!!

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i know i stil love you, but its @ the price of breaking someone else's heart..
i can see the hurt in this poor guy's eyes, and i felt reali stupid and wat a bitch i am with wat i'd done to him..
wanted to say sorry to him but i didnt,
wanted to tell u that im still tinking of u, but i cant,
wanted so much to be with you, but we cant,
i realli realli realli felt veri bad right now, but i cant let it out..
am i suppressing myself too much, am i tinking too much..
no, its my self defence mechanism which is 200% up, that i dun allow anyone or anything to get into my heart, anything that could hurt me in any way.

its reali weird, how this guy wanted so much to be with me.. its gives me the creeps.. i onli know him from the streets! or is it juz in his blood, cos he is a french.. supposingly to be the romantic species in the world.. i do enjoyed his company, but no way i will let myself fall into the trap within juz a day.. i have so much fear, honestly, yes, i admit, i am now a coward in this matter of love.. no longer the gal who will juz fall over heels, one who will follow her heart, in this game of love.. its too dangerous, cos i've been hurt too many times that i know, following my heart in love would onli juz bring me harm. lessons learnt, too well learned.

closure, i need a proper closure.. i need a way to let all this out.. shucks.. this is reali not a good day.. reali felt lousy about myself..
poor frenchie.. im sorry

all these times, i usualy spend my wkends @ home, or either go to church or groceries shopping or shopping in the city centre.. now, finally. i am goin away for a short while.. although its goin to be onli a day trip but wel, i am stil qutie excited abt it cos we r goin to the more east side of Ireland, COUNTY MAYO.

Dublin, where i am now, we r more to the east of Ireland.. will b goin to mayo wif lyn, alan & glen. lyn is one of the philipinos frm my batch, and she was workin in spore b4 coming to here.. someone who loves to cook, and one who can chat wif me abt singapore food, hahahha..

waiting for them to come back frm work then we wil set off to mayo, alan wil b driving.. so it's going to b a long car ride, but hey i dun mind, i can enjoy the scenery, hopefully i dun fall asleep in the car which i usualy normally do... ;p

wait for my beautiful pics to b up ya!! ;D

check out Pussycat dolls new video!!!
i wanna dance again!!!! !!!!

i missed the times when i was doing the exotic dance wif linna, sophie, sera, fiona, evie and rest.. u gals know who u r anyway..! realli, i missed those times! it was reali so much fun and something that i never thought i would do it and performing wif u babes.. wished i had never stopped though.. too much time commitment which i cant give.. hope u babes are doin well back in spore and stil having fun! ;>

Irish food, @ St stephen's shopping center.. the same plce wher Gloria and i had for lunch 1mth ago, this time round, we onli have the soup and dessert. the soup is big and filling.. and nice!! the 1st time we're @ the restaurant, we had the main dish and soup, and it was super filling.. i remembered that the guy who served us behind the counter.. he gave me so much of the mash potato.. i was surprised when i realised wat a pile of the mash he gave when we seated @ our table.. he didnt give as much to glo though.. although i did kinda complaining how come he gave me so much.. i finished everything that is on my plate.. ;p
anyway, if any of u folks r coming over here for holiday, i wil definitely bring u to this plce... ;) and the price, i would say its rather affordable.. 1 big bowl of soup is abt 4euro (S$8) and the dessert i have, was abt 3euro (S$6).. this time although a change of the server, but my share of dessert is stil bigger than glo's..

St Stephen's Shopping Center.. 2mths b4 and after.. with and without xmas decors. ;)

Things u would never see on the streets or bus in spore.. ;)

dear folks, i had passed through the 6weeks of adaptation period, yeah! now gotta wait for abt another 2wks, to get all the paper documents to get my full registration here. so this coming 2 wks will stil b under supervised and i am stil a pre-registered nurse. never mind abt all these terms.. the end msg is that i would be a registered nurse by the end of the yr. isn't tat great? its a fabulous xmas present for myself. ;)

last yr xmas, i gave a great present to a kid in mongolia by being his sponsor, through the World Vision. ;) tat's y i put up its link in my blog as wel. ;p

xmas xmas xams.. every yr i would b busy buying presents for my family, close frens, having parties.. decorating the house.. last 2 yrs, i had xmas dinner party organised for my whole family and all of us had a great time. i missed all the stuffs tat i do back in spore, how busy i am.. here, its relaxing.. nothing much for me to do, cos i actualy dun reali wanna do much as well.. prob its the weather.. juz wanna stay home, dun wanna go out much.. esp goin to the city center.. i dun wanna buy anything but stil would end up spending money buyin stuffs. so the best way is to stay home! but then, i would spend in buying groceries, and im enjoying it,
shucks!

i remembered how eager i was for my webcam to be send over, so that my family and friends can see me thru it via the internet.. but on the other side, i was kinda upset that i have it too.. . cos the 1st thing that my parents saw me thru the cam on Sat.. they said i had put on weight!! argh!!! pple who had known me frm home know how much i hate it when i do put on weight.. this is bcos the 1st plce i would put on weight is on my face!!! shucks!!!
how can i not put on any weight when i almost eat rice everyday over here? i avoid rice when i was in spore! although i used to love having rice, and i must have rice for at least one of the meals, but ever since i started work, and less exercise.. the onli form of exercise tat i have is salsa dancing and occasional netball games. and furthermore, when i was @ work, if the ICU is busy, i can forgo my meals, was so used to havin irregular meals due to shift work and the workload.. i can sometimes onli hav 1meal in a day.. yah, i know it sounds veri scary, but i was so used to tat back in spore, that honestly i dun tink ther's any wrong wif it cos i reali dun feel hungry when i am kept busy.
Over here, its so different.. even when the ward is busy, pple stil go for their break, i hav to go as wel.. and the weather here is freaking cold that always making me hungry.. and thirsty.. i dun eat and drink as much back in spore.. oh man!! and over here, i get so health conscious tat im having fruits and veggies, honey drink, puttin lemon in my water jug, yoghurt, everyday!! wel, tink this is a much normal eating habit yah! ;D

so i am not goin to be affected by the comment of me putting on weight.. cos i hav decided to put on a little bit of weight for the coming WINTER!! hahahha!! ;D when Summer comes, then i will start my exercise regime of Running!

i wanted so much to go jogging when i came over here, but it is reali too cold to run.. prob i am juz finding excuses but reali, i cant stand the temp.. my dear friends know how sensitive i am to cold.. i cant even stand the aircondition temp of 21degrees.. imagine here, its 2-8degrees.. gggrrrrrrhhhhh.... and imagine that when i was sharing room with gloria when we 1st came here, i cant have the warmer in the room on as she cant stand heat.. so everynite i hav to wear my sweaters in the bed wif the covers, with socks and gloves on too!! and stil it was cold for me!! it was worse when i get up in the morning to get my shower.. in the wee hours of half past 4.. even when i hav the thermal wear on, i would stil feel cold. i am like a walkin ghost, always cold upon touch.

so i was veri happy that i can move to a room on my own, when we hav to start payin for the rent of the hosp hostel.. heater on in the room and the bathroom too, and now in the hostel, i can wear my normal t shirts, and to sleep. i am much more warmer person now!! hahhaha!! so much for this post.. ;p time for me to go and sleep, tml's goin to b long busy day for moi!!

had a long tiring day today @ work, and was ventilating to glo abt today's work.. tolerate gal.. anyway, this post is not goin to be anything abt work or any frustrating stuffs.. its about a tv show tat i happen to switch on to that channel..

This is strictly for folks above 21yrs old and those with an open mind!! im serious!!

it is about nowadays how men are into a surgery for themselves.. Penis Enlargement (PE).. and it is not uncommon, but honestly, i am surprised to hear abt this surgery.. showing the surgery abt how it is done, interviews of men who had these operations done, and one of the men who had a long manhood.. and one who had his penis longer by his own means, and did get it longer and now he's selling dvds worldwidely about how he had done it without any surgery.. gosh!! that man said in his interview that he wan his manhood to be thick as his wrist and as long as his arm... this man is simply CARZY!! and one cute guy who wanted to get the operation done, interviewing him why he wan the surgery.. and one who had the op done and became a posterboy for one of the mag.. and the voiceover said somethinglike, when u tink u had the longest and biggest, u might find someone else even bigger and longer than yrs.. and the posterboy did verified that he did saw someone who has a 22cm big, in circumference..! OMG..
this posterboy showed the camera his big manhood, it is reali big (and the testicles) but reali i find it reali disgusting.. y would any guy wan to hav something like tat hanging?? frm the tv, the size of his testicles are like a melon.. honeydew melon! of cos wif such huge manhood, this man cant have any sex anymore.. but to him, having tat is far more better than having sex.. this man is OBSESSED! he had silicone injected into his manhood!! this is wat i can say! so the cute guy tat the show is 'focusing' has decided to go for the op and it shows the whole surgery procedure.. and after the op, he is having a 6.1inch penis, unerected.

How weird the world has become..
Women go for breast enlargement surgeries cos they think that men loves bigger boobs.. and now, Men go for penis enlargement operations thinking women like men with bigger, longer penis.. Of cos ther r some who had these operations for themselves, not for their partners.. but still.. .. .. ..

wel, it wil b a reali veri interesting topic for a psychologic or social science subject,, abt how pple think, why they feel and think like tat, and why they do things like tat.. human minds are reali veri interesting, challenging & intriguing.. ;)

all i can say and conclude is tat, the only person tat is benefiting from all these operations are the surgeons, esp the one who is performing the PE surgery..

men, fyi.. this surgeon is stationed @ US. :>

this week wil b the evaluation week.. although i know that i am giong to pass this probation and get the full registration, but still, i still a little nervous and excited, ;p
its juz like being a student.. waiting for the examination results..
there was a few times that i wished that i am here as a student, goin to school and i am pretty sure that i will definitely have a gd time here, not saying that i am not havin a gd time now, but its different.. being here to study, and being here to work.. but wel, i hav no complaints afterall i am here. ;D

this trip abroad make me realise how much i love my family and friends, more than i thought.. too much i tink.. this trip has make my bond wif my family closer. its not as if that we are not close then, but it juz make it closer.. i like this feeling. although i am far away frm home, but stil, i know that we miss & love one another a lot!! ;)

its kinda acceptable that the philipinos called me "A baby" when we 1st came here... but when darren's fren (who's @ belfast), whom he introduced me thru msn and after some chattin.. he also said that im stil like a big baby... WEIRD!!! wel, mayb i am.. its okie though.. i am learning and growing.. i feel that i am even more disciplined now, and organised. its not as if that i am not when i was in spore.
wel, although i hav been here for abt 2mths.. i have not check out the pubs, clubs and even my love, Salsa yet! hmm, its only during this adaptation period that im restraining myself from goin out and checkin out the fun that i can have. wait till i get my registration, hehehhehehe!!! its a gd time for a break as well. i had worked hard and played too hard back in spore. now, im working hard & having gd rest during my off days and wkends. i am not pushing myself too hard cos i dun wanna fall sick in this new plce and cold weather, its not goin to b any fun then. ;)

although everything has been goin on smoothly for me over here, but it is not the same for some pple whom i care and love. was reali surprised to hear some bad news frm aunty mary abt her family.. and reali felt veri sad that it has happened to the family, and that i am not there.. its not that i can change things or anything like tat, but at least i hope to b ther for any support that i can give to their family.. all i can do now is to pray for uncle terence and his family that things will become better for them.. and for anna's grandma too.. sorry babe, that i couldnt b there, but i stil care,

i know my entry into my blog is gettin longer, but ther're stil so many things that i wanna put down, :D wil try to update more often so tat i dun hav to write so many stuffs in one entry.. ;)

New song that i love!! The lyrics of the song has fully describes one part of me, ;)

November is coming to an end, drawing near to Xmas, drawing near to winter..
It is starting to rain almost everday, sometimes its juz get windy
such strong wind that almost swept me of my feet
leaves turning from green, to red and yellow, falling off from the trees,
signs of winter approaching, and everyone warns me that it will be even colder as time passes by..
i have always wanted to have a white xmas, but it doesnt snow in dublin though.. but still i will have to go through the freezing temperature.. checkin the weather everyday online has been a habit of mine.. not onli tat, i have become more health conscious than i was in spore since i came here.. i am eating more than wat i usualy hav when im @ home.. here, the amount of wat im eating here in 1day is more than wat i had for 2 (or mayb 3) days in spore....!!
Breakfast, tea, lunch, tea, dinner. and sometimes supper.. im like a growing teen with such gd appetite that i am almost always hungry every 2-3hours.. and another 3 must-have stuffs are, Orange, yogurt and milk. i have them almost everyday, and im not tired of any of them. i have to keep myself healthy so that i wont fall sick.. as it is not cheap to fall sick here, gotta pay for the registeration to a GP.. wil defnitely keep myself away frm being sick!! An apple(orange) a day, keep the doctor away. but if the doctor is cute and handsome, i'll keep the apple away!!! ;D

its been a busy week for me in the ward, and a little frustrating at times.. but wel, thankfully its over and luckily i dun hav to work on the wkends. i reali love it when its coming to the wkends, i can juz rest @ home, in the room, gettin online for the whole day and catch up wif frens n my family, esp on sat.. ;p despite of the busy week, the god thing that has happen is that i had received the package that Charlie had helped to send my things over, with my webcam!! finally, my family and frens can see mi, well, actualy, although ther's nothing much to see cos i haven changed a bit at all.. but hey, it stil feel different when u can see pple thru the screen of yr pc instead of the real person standing in front u! juz like when i can see my dog on my screen but he couldnt see me when i haven receive my webcam yet.. he was terrified to hear my voice coming out frm the pc!! but when on Sat, my family saw me thru my webcam, and when my dear coco heard my voice nad saw me from the pc,,,, he was looking @ the pc screen and he was wagging his furry tail!! he juz kept looking @ the screen, argh...!!! i know he missed me lots lots n lots..!!! ;D i almost cried!! honestly, the thought of coco would juz bring tears to my eyes.. my sis was tellin me that he kept on coming up to my bed and stay on my bed... i missed him terribly too! okie, i dun juz miss my coco.. i juz missed everyone back home, back in spore.. everyone !!! !!!

xmas is coming near.. and it did make me miss home much more, cos i would b busy gettin presents for almost everyone, organise xmas party for my family.. ahhh.. although its stil a little early early for xmas, but in the supermarkets, shops here, they are oreadi selling the decors for xmas, lights are up in the streets.. although i wont b in spore for xmas this yr.. but im stil looking forward to spend my 1st xmas in dublin, i wonder how would it b like.. ;>

juz like wat my sis was telling, this yr prob it wil b a quiet xmas for my family cos im not ard to do all the organising for the party.. wel, at least it does make them miss me more!! hahahha!! when i come back, i'll definitely make a big grand xmas party!! ;D

i hav onli been here for a mth+, and yet im oreadi tinking of the nex 2yr.. when i go back, wat am i goin to do, stufs like tat... gosh.. its so like me.. always have plans in my mind, knowing wat i wan.. hehehehe.. ;p right now, i juz wanna get thru the probation period (they called the adaptaion period over here), then i will start checkin out the plces, salsa.. and prob take my driving license here, wil see how it goes.. ;p

Was passing by the Dublin Castle today after attending mass, had a different view of the DC frm another side, thus got a beautiful pic taken of the DC. ;)



This is the building of the Dublin tourist Centre.





This is the Christ Church Cathedral.. very big church..


This is connected to the Christ Church Cathedral which i dun know what is tat, but i like the design of it.